Weaving Omnipotence

Deborah
15 hours ago
3 min read

Jeremiah 32:17 ESV

Job 42:1-6 MSG

At one point in my life I was in so much emotional pain I couldn’t see how to move forward. As it turned out that was my defining moment.

That was the moment I knew I could do nothing without God.

As painful as it was, I now thank God because I now see that was the moment I realized I had nothing but God.

The Prophet proclaimed in Jeremiah 32:17, “‘Ah, Lord God! It is you who have made the heavens and the earth by your great power and by your outstretched arm! Nothing is too hard for you.”

Even though I was raised in church and church had always been an important part of my life until that moment, I could not see all that really mattered was God.

When I surrendered everything to God and sat in the ashes of life, I had not fully surrendered everything to God.

I could not see how to move forward to build a new life but I now know God could see everything in my future.

In that moment I realized nothing is too hard for God.

I remembered Job who lost everything.

Job actually lost more than I lost. He lost all of his children, he lost his family, his flocks, his herds, and his health.

Yet in the big scheme of things, Job gained much more because his relationship with God changed.

In Job 42:1-6 we are told, “Job answered God: “I’m convinced: You can do anything and everything. Nothing and no one can upset your plans. You asked, ‘Who is this muddying the water, ignorantly confusing the issue, second-guessing my purposes?’I admit it. I was the one. I babbled on about things far beyond me, made small talk about wonders way over my head. You told me, ‘Listen, and let me do the talking.Let me ask the questions. You give the answers.’I admit I once lived by rumors of you; now I have it all firsthand—from my own eyes and ears!I’m sorry—forgive me. I’ll never do that again, I promise!

I’ll never again live on crusts of hearsay, crumbs of rumor.”

It took time but I can now see that was because I needed to grieve losing my old life. I learned that grief is an integral part of life. “It is generally accepted that there are five stages of grief, also known as the Kübler-Ross model. Elisabeth Kübler-Ross, a Swiss-American psychiatrist, introduced the five stages in her 1969 book “On Death and Dying.” The stages of grief– denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance – were initially described as a framework to understand the emotional responses of terminally ill patients facing their death. Over time, the model was adapted to represent the grieving process in response to other types of loss.“

Even though the book was published in 1969, the truth still remains.

When we suffer loss, we grieve and through our grief we are able to let go and let God prepare us for our new life.

And so it was with me. It wasn’t instant but God helped me to let go of my old life, making room for the new.

I learned to like myself.

I learned I don’t need a partner to find fulfillment.

God gave me a new life just for me…and it is good.

Deborah

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