Catching My Breath

Series: Refresh Repair

Psalm 23:3 MSG

For as long as I can remember (which is a pretty long time) I’ve known I can always count on God to care for me and even get me out of a bad spot.

I recently had something very unexpected happen that upset me.

Without going into detail, I can’t say I didn’t see it coming. If I would’ve seen it coming, I might have been able to mitigate the problem.

I was blindsided. I was caught between two women who both believed they were right about a certain issue.

Both believed I would be on their side.

Without saying which side I agreed with I can tell you sometimes the person who keeps their mouth shut and carefully considers both sides is the person I will agree with.

Psalm 23:3 tells us, “True to your word, you let me catch my breath and send me in the right direction.”

When women are involved confrontation often happens when one woman believes she’s right and the other woman is wrong. I say ‘often happens’ because according to studies I’ve read women tend to be emotional creatures.

Even knowing that, when the confrontation happened it took me by surprise.

That reminds me of Psalm 23:3, “True to your word, you let me catch my breath and send me in the right direction.”

I believe God was protecting me when it happened. I came upon the conversation and I stayed in the background. I did not speak.

It’s pretty unusual for me not to speak, but I believe God was holding onto me.

I did not speak about it for many days.

I felt like I needed to spend quiet time with God so I could recover from their confrontation.

As I sat with God, I realized I needed to be healed. Even though I was not part of the confrontation two people I cared about were at odds.

It became clear that God wanted me to take time to catch my breath.

I needed time to refresh my spirit. I did that I sitting with God. My spiritual director I sat with for many years reminded me over and over again when I do not know what to think or what to do I need to take time to sit in the silence of God.

I have learned as I sit in the silence of God not only does God heal me, God uses the time to prepare me for the next step.

I am reminded (over and over again) that God is Omnipresent.

God is present in all places at the same time. So not only can God see the future, God can be present in the past, in the present, and in the future.

It’s important to note that our feelings do matter. God loves us.

We are not puppets.

So every time every person makes a decision, there is a shift.

God is in the shift.

Remember God is always present.

In the case of this confrontation between two people I know God was present.

As I sat with God I was reminded when we sit in the silence with God healing takes place. God did not direct me to take action and so I did not take action.

I waited.

This morning quite unexpectedly I saw one of the women and I had the opportunity to tell her I had missed seeing her. I told her I had been resting. I didn’t explain why. She didn’t ask why and I was grateful she accepted my explanation.

We did share a moment of awareness and agreement about a national matter that had been in the news.

It was good to laugh with her again.

As I walked away I thanked God for the silence and the healing that took place. I was once again reminded it is God who refreshes and repairs.

In God,

Deborah

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